I wrote this post several weeks ago but apparently forgot to post it... so here it is now.
I made a big decision official on Wednesday. I informed my workplace that the next 17 days are my last, and I will not be returning next school year. I believe whole heartedly that this is the right decision for me. However, it was a far from easy decision to make.
I LOVE my coworkers. I really do. They are dedicated and intelligent and so good at what they do. Not just the ones in my classroom, but throughout our entire building. I have made many friends and have people every day checking in on me to see how I'm doing and asking to help. I enjoy many many aspects of the job I have, but unfortunately for me, there is no real room for growth for me unless I get a counseling or special education license, and neither makes sense for me currently.
6 weeks from now I will be 50% done with my Masters degree coursework. By attending John Carroll full time next year I can finish by May. My schedule will be such that I can substitute teach several days a week and get my face into districts I really want to work in. Upon graduation I can apply to adjunct at local community colleges as well as continuing to apply for full time High School English jobs. This is the path I have to take.
The sense of relief I have from making my intentions known is great. My leaving may open up opportunities for others in my school. But I am still sad. And, I can admit, scared. What if this doesn't work out the way I want. What if I don't get enough sub jobs and can't find a decent part time job that works with my schedule? I have to trust my gut and stick with the choice I've made.
To any Phoenix people reading this- I appreciate each and every one of you and will miss you greatly. Don't be surprised if I come and visit.